i will remember you

I will always remember you, it was too short but deeply and deeply beautiful. Our journey knew lots of joy but also pain. I will always remember those days we talk, about little things, how much you told the more I laugh. How angry you where the more I cry. And when you cried I drown in your tears. I will always remember you telling me I should get a boyfriend, go out and live. God I loved those words. But I also remember you having me but still being lonely. Sometimes I stood outside your room and hear you talking to god. Asking him to forgive you for you couldn’t give me what I needed. But what I really needed was your smile and feeling you loving me. I have all this words I never tell you before, yes I wrote but never speak about it. By the time I wanted to tell you, you weren’t  able to listen and understand. Something that really hurts me. But you know what, I love you and that’s what matters. All this feelings so deep inside that right now I just can’t hide is making me feeling amazingly proud. And I will always remember this afternoon me standing here and telling everybody a story that was beautiful but ended too soon.  This lest forever……